2019 Prayer and Fasting, Day 20

This morning I came across a notecard where I had written Deuteronomy 32:27 on it. When I read that verse and really that section, that's what led me to decide "I'm in" to Christ. This was in March 2013, during the year I was reading through the entire Bible, front to back.

Deuteronomy 32:26-27, New International Version 

I said I would scatter them
and erase their name from human memory,
but I dreaded the taunt of the enemy,
lest the adversary misunderstand
and say, ‘Our hand has triumphed;
the Lord has not done all this.’

A lot of what made God appealing to me was that I got to see what seems like a glimpse at His (almost) human-ness, a crack in this picture I'd had from a young age of this Perfect Almighty God Who Is Too High And Too Perfect To Be Anything Like Me. In the previous couple years, as He was drawing me closer to Him (while I was still technically unsaved), I had a number of moments particularly where I would feel pain or frustration, come across something either in the Bible or a Christian inspiration book, and feel validated, like God not only knew what I felt but also felt what I felt. How I took it was: "Here, God is like me." Yes, perhaps this is a more self-centered perspective, but I learned not to discount the lengths God is willing to go to bring me towards Him.

In response, I wrote the following song, "Believing That He Can Help Me," off the album "Not Just Salvation But Recovery," which I posted on my Bandcamp site in December 2015. The lyrics to the fourth verse was my immediate response to the above passage from Deuteronomy.