Once again I skipped church this morning, but I went to Selah this evening, and I can easily say it's the most spiritually uplifting experience I've had in a while. But this is no new event for me. I've been going for quite a while (since late freshman year), but for the most part FCA dwarfed it.
This year I've been less than impressed at FCA. Many of the people I got to know and enjoy their company are MIA at FCA (sorry for the excess acronyms). It feels like a lackadaisical attempt to bring people together to worship God, when instead the focus seems to be on the people themselves.
So I can say the honeymoon period with FCA is long gone. But to be honest, when it comes to spiritual organizations it should never leave. Perhaps I've seen FCA in a more political light than spiritual, or maybe there are so many people I don't know that I don't know where to begin, or maybe I'm just too damn busy on Tuesday nights.
Then there's TNBS (Thursday Night Bible Study). I never went with any regularity, and when I did I'm sure I've fallen asleep during part of it. But the Sunday night event still sticks with me. Selah is entirely made up of singing. And I guess I like it best now because I spend the whole hour combining my love of God with my love of music. But probably on another note, this event is when I see most of the people I know.
Even though I know I have a long way to go spiritually, I have come a far way from January 2005, when I first re-entered the Christian faith. I recall I was so dependent on finding any form of Christianity that I was willing to take whatever side effects the group may have come with. As I've begun to mature and understand said faith, I've begun to weigh specific aspects of how one practices Christianity and pick out which ones suit me better than others. And to compare Selah with TNBS (and FCA to a lesser extent), I much prefer experiencing and feeling the Holy Spirit rather than studying it.