Friday, June 19, 2026

Otto Warmbier, part 1: a primer (Micah 6:8)




Last weekend, God provided a way for me to take a large step forward in my health, and on the other side of it, I can surely say that it was (and is) worth it. But because the appointment entailed a sort of “procedure” that I’d never done before and, as such, didn’t quite understand how it was ultimately going to work, I felt nervous going into this. (Turns out any and all fears were truly unfounded. Praise God!)


But the devil still tried to stoke those fears. In short, I know he has been trying to take me out. But that’s a story for a different day. And besides, God is my protector. Ultimately, Jesus gets the final word. I watch YouTube a lot. I even have an account. Usually I’m logged in, and it’s automatic at this point. But sometimes YouTube logs me out, and I often don’t notice for a while. (I only find out if I decide to “like” a video, and only then does it tell me that I need to log in. A simple tap of a button later, and that takes care of that.) What’s kind of scary and potentially dangerous about the issue of whether I am logged in or not is that the type of videos that pop up on my YouTube feed are wildly different from each other: when I’m logged in, I get Christian videos including prayer and devotional videos, sports videos, cat rescue videos, and classical music videos; when I’m not, who knows. There are some sports videos but more often than not it’s some type of human interaction video, often showcasing how one person in particular is reacting to something else that’s going on. And it was while I was unknowingly logged out that I came across the horror series based on Otto Warmbier’s detention in North Korea.


At first, I was curious, naturally speaking. I had heard the name before, and I had understood that he had been arrested in North Korea. But that was it. I’d completely forgotten when this had occurred, and I hadn’t even realized that he had died. I’d heard of other foreigners who had been arrested, and although I had understood that the process of getting them released was generally long and arduous, generally such persons had gotten released.


More recently, in Russia, we had a couple of known American prisoners for crimes that would be considered bogus on our land, but very much against the law there. Additionally, their justice system was nothing like ours. According to US standards, the punishment for said crimes which in and of themselves were already bogus, were even more bogus (i.e. harsh). In large part due to the incompetence of our president at the time, but also in part because Russia knew they could extort us, we gave up a dangerous arms dealer in exchange for an LGBTQIA+ professional women’s basketball player. In other words, a glorified celebrity! What about Paul Whelan, a marine who fought for his country? (We did eventually get him freed as well.)


Even in North Korea, although the conditions were harsh, and the process of getting our prisoners freed long, arduous, and difficult, in almost every case, we were able to get them back unharmed.


Yes, in every case, except Otto Warmbier.


The devil dropped this video in front of me the evening before my medical appointment. At first I was curious, but after watching only a minute of the horror narrative I was upset and scared for the guy. Seconds later, I looked him up online, and only then did I understand that not only did this take place a decade ago, but that the experience had killed him. Ok, this wasn’t current, but the fact that he died was upsetting. Moments ago, before I stopped the video, I had heard him crying and pleading for his life. I couldn’t sleep very much that night. But I responded by praying and praising silently. I eventually was able to get some sleep, and when I needed to wake for the day, by God’s grace I did feel rested.


I am choosing to embark on this series because, as I was trying to gather data about what happened (North Korea tends to be secretive about imprisonment details), I realized that I had my work cut out for me. There isn’t a dearth of information about Warmbier or the aspects of what happened that is publicly available. But there is a multitude of opinions that run the gamut of “he messed around and found out” to “North Korea should be wiped off the map for this travesty,” as well as all sorts of thoughts in between. Ultimately there’s a lot of speculation, and the more I search for the truth, the less helpful most of said speculation is. The thing is, there is a lot we don’t know about what happened to Warmbier that even the best of human deductive reasoning cannot possibly determine. My goal is therefore to embark on not only try to deduce what happened, but to invite the Word of God and the Spirit of God into this. Because, after all, He does reveal mysteries:


“But there is a God in heaven who reveals secrets, and He has made known to King Nebuchadnezzar what will be in the latter days. Your dream, and the visions of your head upon your bed, were these:”
‭‭Daniel‬ ‭2‬:‭28‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



As for any questions or doubts that I had regarding whether to proceed (is this something that God would be pleased with me doing?), I felt the below recent devotional has helped to answer it:




“He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God?”
‭‭Micah‬ ‭6‬:‭8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



What Does God Want?


“What is God’s will for my life?”
“What is my purpose and calling?”
“What can I do to please God?”


In the New Testament, Jesus provides the answer to those questions by telling His followers to love God and love people. In the Old Testament, the prophet Micah—empowered by the Holy Spirit—summarized God’s will for Israel by saying:


“He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?”
Micah 6:8 ESV


These words were penned during a time when God’s people were trying to please Him with sacrifices, offerings, and going through religious motions—while living lives of deception, violence, and pride. But as the prophet Hosea writes, “I [God] desire mercy, not sacrifice, and acknowledgment of God rather than burnt offerings.” (Hosea 6:6 NIV)


God is after our heart motives, not our outward religious activity or begrudging obedience.


Let’s break down what God desires of us:


- DO JUSTICE. Doing justice requires faith and actions working together: helping the hurting, defending the weak, dealing fairly with the people we encounter, and speaking for those who cannot speak for themselves. In other words, to do justice, we must love others as we love ourselves.


- LOVE KINDNESS. The mercy of God is an extreme kindness. And because we’ve been shown undeserved kindness by Him, we can show undeserved kindness to others. God desires these things more than endless “I’m sorry” speeches. God is kind to the grateful and the wicked (Luke 6:35), so we should be too.


- WALK HUMBLY. Be teachable. Be moldable. Remember: You’re not God. You have limitations. You need a Creator and Savior. You’re only here because God spoke you into existence. So confidently embrace who you are, and who you are not, because it’s when we live fully surrendered to God that He does incredible things through us.


Seeking justice, loving kindness, and walking humbly—that is what God wants from us. So in a world that’s saturated with injustice, hatred, and arrogance, let’s be people marked by these three things.


Be encouraged: We don’t have to wonder what God wants. He’s already shown us and told us: to act justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with Him.


Share your faith: How can you make the world around you more just? How can you show mercy? How can you humble yourself and magnify God?


Prayer: God, please show me how to love You and love Your people. Align my heart with Your will, and help me to make decisions that bring You glory and honor. Help me to see myself accurately so that I can love others fully. Show me how to show justice and mercy to those who need it—because those are actions that delight you and show that I am Your child. In Jesus’s name, Amen.




Any regular readers who read this space, you probably would expect me to also include similar verses to today’s focus verse. And so I will:


““And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you, but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in all His ways and to love Him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, and to keep the commandments of the Lord and His statutes which I command you today for your good?”
‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭10‬:‭12‬-‭13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.””
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭22‬:‭37‬-‭40‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


My reasoning is simple:


“Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.”
‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭4‬:‭12‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


In other words, although one verse from Scripture is strong enough to stand on its own (see Jesus resisting the devil when He was tempted. He used three different verses but that was for three different temptations. In other words, one verse to combat one temptation is enough.), I just like to carpetbomb my opposition with verses that work well together. Whatever it takes to reduce my enemies’ lies to silence.


Many of the (useless) comments I saw on Reddit in my search to find information that may not be found on Wikipedia or any public news sources are precisely that: noise and opinions based on a person’s own worldview, irrespective of any real research. I’ve found that I don’t have much patience for that kind of thing. It’s also taken me many, many, many, many years to learn that public fora are not places to express opinions. Heck, even phone calls or visits with friends that I haven’t talked to in years aren’t places to be too free-speaking, even though I’m blessed to live in a country that still fights for it. It’s one of the lesser reasons I still blog; I need a place where I can organize and express thoughts (and yes, opinions) and have the time and space to work on and develop them without interruptions let alone others’ opinions fouling up my process. (I think I’m the same way with composing music!) There are times when the need is less great (for example if I’m sharing a short devotional or a screenshot of something profound with only a few words). And then there are times like this. I’m researching about a man I never met, who died a terrible death, and someone who I think hasn’t really had compassion extended to him much, even in death. (Yes, even those who fall in the “North Korea should be wiped off the map” camp haven’t jumped up to defend him!)


And although Warmbier has been dead for nine years (and brain-dead for over ten), examining what happened to him, and why, and attempting to thoughtfully examine as best I can the division of responsibility in this case gone wrong, I think is a way of doing justice for him, in a small way. And this opportunity never would have come up if I hadn’t been unknowingly logged out of YouTube while on the site, and the video hadn’t popped up on my screen. I truly believe that God is going to do something good with this, because He’s the type to take what the devil meant for evil and turn it around for good.


“But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive.”
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭50‬:‭20‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


More to come in subsequent posts.

Thursday, June 18, 2026

Devotionals from my Bible app: Prayerfully Reading Scripture (Psalm 73:23-25)





Prayerfully Reading Scripture

Maybe reading the Bible doesn’t feel as meaningful as it should. Maybe you’re just struggling to connect. Or maybe, you’re just not sure if you’re taking something out of context! We’ve been there.

Here’s a thought: If we’re always reading the Bible to be informed, we might be missing out on opportunities to be formed.

Sometimes we read the Bible expecting to “get” something out of it—like a catchy one-liner, or the answer to a question we have. And this can lead us to skim through some of the slower parts and stories we already know, or jump to conclusions about what a particular verse might mean.

This is why it can be helpful to slow down when we read the Bible, to let God speak to us in new ways we could not have expected. And that’s where we get a practice called “Lectio Divina”, or “Divine Reading”: a way of reading the Bible that both monks and everyday Christians have been practicing for 1,500 years.

What is Lectio Divina?

Basically, it’s a way of slowly reading a few verses of scripture several times, with an intentional focus each time—reading, reflecting, responding, and resting. The steps help us listen for what the Holy Spirit is saying to us through the text.

Why Lectio Divina?

Slowing down isn’t something we’re very good at. Most of us live every single day rushing from one thing to the next. What a practice like Lectio Divina does, is slow us down so we can have just a bit of space to hear what we would’ve otherwise rushed past. It’s an invitation to listen to Scripture expectant that God has something to say to us each time.

The best way to get a feel for it is by trying it, so we invite you to take 2 minutes and pray through this Psalm with us.

In case this is your only chance to pause today, be sure to get in a comfortable posture, take a few deep breaths, and dive in! (We added the original Latin names for the steps, in case you really want that Monk aesthetic )


Lectio Divina Steps

Step 1: Read (Lectio)

Read these verses slowly and prayerfully, listening for a word, image, or feeling to stand out to you. You may want to read the passage several times to allow space for discovery.

Psalm 73: 23-25

“I am always with you;

you hold me by my right hand.


Pause


You guide me with your counsel,

and afterward, you will take me into glory.


Pause


Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire besides you.”

Step 2: Reflect (Meditatio)

Read the passage again.

When a word, image, or feeling stands out, pause, and reflect on it. Read that verse again. Ask God, why is this particular word meaningful to me right now?

Step 3: Respond (Oratio)

Read the passage a third time.

After reflecting on the word, image, or feeling, take a moment to respond to God. This might look like thanking him for speaking, asking a deeper question, or making a commitment to acting on what has been placed on your heart. What would you like to say to the Lord in response to the word spoken to you?

Step 4: Rest (Contemplatio)

Read the Scripture a final time.

Take one last moment to simply sit still in God’s presence, as you would in the presence of a friend or loved one. Remember, this prayer is not work you have to do, but rather allowing God to work in you.


Prayer: Father God, in the name of Jesus, I am repenting and returning to You. I confess that I still desire earthly blessings more than heavenly blessings. Your promise to Asaph, to guide him with Your counsel, and afterward, to take him into glory, is a promise that I want to believe for myself as well. “Into glory,” that is something that I want to desire more than anything in this life. I ask You to please cause me to desire it, and to desire You more than anything. I thank You for bringing me back after my latest wandering. Amen.


Note after sharing the devotional: I’ve practiced Lectio Divina a number of times, particularly during my years at the Vineyard. I’m currently aware of two main ways to read the Bible: one way is to read 3, 5, even 10 chapters a day, with the design of getting as much of Scripture in my purview as much as possible, which will accelerate the amount of time spent reading through the whole Word and shorten the time needed to go back and read through it again. In the short run, it might be less effective for memorizing Scripture, but in the long run, the idea (as I understand it) is that more of Scripture will be memorized and internalized simply by reading through all of it more often, made possibly only by consuming as much as possible each and every day. The other way is Lectio Divina. Yes, it is by far a lot less of Scripture at one time. But it is more focused, meditating on a few specific verses, reading and rereading (as described earlier in this post) and praying to God while doing it. 

I don’t necessarily think one way is more right than the other. But, as I’m not a huge fan of simply reading (I do like to read, but I prefer to do it in short spurts and then create something in response, whether a literary response (a reflection), or a musical response. I like to create more than I like to read. As such, I have found the Lectio Divina practices to be the more preferable route. But both options are good.

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Sermons from Good News: God gives power to change things.





Church 6/14/2026


Offertory scripture:


“Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭27‬:‭14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Sermon message:


Thesis: God gives power to change things.


The unseen can change the seen.


Gospel of John and book of Hebrews - first two books that our pastor recommends Bible newbies read.


“By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭11‬:‭3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“These things we also speak, not in words which man’s wisdom teaches but which the Holy Spirit teaches, comparing spiritual things with spiritual.”
‭‭I Corinthians‬ ‭2‬:‭13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”
‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭4‬:‭18‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



You learn to see things in the Spirit, and not by your own understanding, or through your flesh.


Repeated for emphasis:


“These things we also speak, not in words which man’s wisdom teaches but which the Holy Spirit teaches, comparing spiritual things with spiritual.”
‭‭I Corinthians‬ ‭2‬:‭13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



People who aren’t saved and who aren’t interested in the spiritual things, they think that such things are foolish. Ironically they’re often interested in demonic things, but not good things.


But for those who are interested in Godly things, they have access to unseen power that is still real.


Point 1: There is power in prayer.


God has given us a supernatural power that actually does move things around in the spirit realm immediately.


For example, Daniel and the lions den. The lions were real. The edict to worship only the human king was real. But Daniel believed that only prayer could solve the hard circumstance.


Peter healed a lame man by using Jesus’s name. There is power in His name. The Jewish leaders tried to shake Peter and John’s faith. But they got together with other believers and prayed to strengthen their faith. And when they prayed, the Holy Spirit showed up in power and strengthened them.


“And when they had prayed, the place where they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness.”
‭‭Acts‬ ‭4‬:‭31‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Use the power of prayer. Others may not see where your prayers go. And you might not see it right away. But the power of prayer in Jesus’s name is already working.


“Then they cry out to the Lord in their trouble, And He brings them out of their distresses.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭107‬:‭28‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Pray and receive strength in Jesus.


Prayer also stops satanic attacks. Use prayer to stop spiritual attacks. Oftentimes people don’t pray and the attacks continue.


“So He said to them, “This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting.””
‭‭Mark‬ ‭9‬:‭29‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



[Note: the translation that my pastor used had only the reference to prayer but not to fasting. That said, what I would say is that depending on the caliber and intensity of the demonic attack, either only prayer, or both prayer and fasting, are necessary.]


Prayer can also strengthen us against temptation. It is a supernatural force that shows up in the natural.


Point 2: There is power in praise.


Praise is a weapon. There is a supernatural force that shows up and takes place.


Consider the case of Gideon. He surrounded his military forces with the praise team. The enemy started turning against themselves.


Consider the case of Joshua and marching around Jericho. It had never previously been defeated. The solution was not by human effort, but by divine instruction and by praising God. Only them did the walls of Jericho falls. God brings victory when we pray and when we praise.


Consider David. He lost his wife and kids, as did so many people around him, and even then they started to blame him. Even he started to get down. But then he strengthened himself in God, praised Him, got everything back, and got spoil as well.


“Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.”
‭‭I Samuel‬ ‭30‬:‭6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Consider Paul and Silas in the prison cell. They began praying and praising God at midnight.


“Suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken; and immediately all the doors were opened and everyone’s chains were loosed.”
‭‭Acts‬ ‭16‬:‭26‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“But You are holy, Enthroned in the praises of Israel.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭22‬:‭3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Here, “Israel” refers to “the people of God,” which today means all believers of Jesus Christ.


Point 3: There is power in speaking the Word of God.


It is better to speak the Word of God than giving the devil credence.


Like with praying and praising, speaking the Word of God changes things, first in the spiritual, and then eventually in the natural.


The Word of God is the sword of the Spirit, which is a key part of the armor of God. This is what we use to fight back against the devil as a counteroffensive. (The shield of faith stops the lies of the devil, and the sword of the Spirit counterattacks him to hurt him and weaken him.)


“And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God;”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6‬:‭17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Consider Moses vs Pharaoh. He spoke what God told him to say. Things didn’t materialize right away. But eventually they did.


Focus on the spiritual realm. It will change the natural as well.


Point 4: There is power in the name of Jesus.


There is power in speaking the name of Jesus.


Peter did this when he commanded the lame man to rise and walk. There indeed is power in His name.


“Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth,”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭2‬:‭9‬-‭10‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Point 5: There is power in the blood of Jesus.


Whenever Satan is trying to hold your sin over you, speak the below verse:


“In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭1‬:‭7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“The blood of Jesus Christ has forgiven me.”


If Satan tries to force you to identify as a sinner:


“in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭1‬:‭14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“The blood of Jesus Christ has cleansed and purified me.”


If Satan tries to dissuade you from approaching God at all:


“Now where there is remission of these, there is no longer an offering for sin. Therefore, brethren, having boldness to enter the Holiest by the blood of Jesus,”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭10‬:‭18‬-‭19‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“The blood of Jesus Christ has forgiven me.”


Submit to God. Then you can be assured that God will do all the above.


“Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.”
‭‭James‬ ‭4‬:‭7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,”
‭‭I Peter‬ ‭5‬:‭6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Testimony on how believers overcame Satan:


“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.”
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭12‬:‭11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Note after sharing the sermon: I think learning to see events and incidents through the spiritual lens rather than the natural lens is one of the most difficult things a person can do. It is absolutely necessary, however, for the strengthening of one’s faith. Bad circumstances can drain a person’s strength when they rely on said strength. But when truly trusting God and His perspective, it has the power to reshape how one sees circumstances as well as the individual(s) that may be responsible for causing them. It’s a lesson I’m still learning, and one that I’ve continued to be slow to grasp. I can still think of arguments for why people can still be my enemies or evil. But it’s times like these when I know I desire to learn, that I must lay aside any arguments. After all:


“For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,”
‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭10‬:‭4‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



At the end of the day, the power that is found in prayer, praise, the Word of God, the name of Jesus, and the blood of Jesus, is rooted first in receiving Him as your King and Savior, surrendering your life to Him, submitting your will to Him, and receiving Him into 100% of your heart. It’s rooted in this key relationship that has the power to transform you in ways that no other relationship can. The power found in prayer, praise, the Word of God, the name of Jesus, and the blood of Jesus, is available to anyone who truly believes. And from there, anything truly is possible, as long as it agrees with God’s sovereign will.

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Sermons from Good News: You can recover from failure.





Church 6/7/2026


Offertory scripture:


“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Sermon message:


Thesis: You can recover from failure.


This includes failure in any or every part of life.


You can recover because God loves you.


People fail. That’s a reality. But God wants to help you.


Example: David in the Bible. Even he failed. But God restored him. He recovered.


Another example: Moses in the Bible. He failed. But God helped him to play a role in His purpose.


Another example: the parable of the prodigal son.


Even today, Christians fail.


“For a righteous man may fall seven times And rise again...”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭24‬:‭16‬A ‭NKJV‬‬



“I acknowledged my sin to You, And my iniquity I have not hidden. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,” And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭32‬:‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
‭‭I John‬ ‭1‬:‭9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Case study: Apostle Peter


“So it was, as the multitude pressed about Him to hear the word of God, that He stood by the Lake of Gennesaret, and saw two boats standing by the lake; but the fishermen had gone from them and were washing their nets. Then He got into one of the boats, which was Simon’s, and asked him to put out a little from the land. And He sat down and taught the multitudes from the boat. When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.” But Simon answered and said to Him, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net.” And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking. So they signaled to their partners in the other boat to come and help them. And they came and filled both the boats, so that they began to sink. When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, “Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!” For he and all who were with him were astonished at the catch of fish which they had taken; and so also were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, who were partners with Simon. And Jesus said to Simon, “Do not be afraid. From now on you will catch men.” So when they had brought their boats to land, they forsook all and followed Him.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭1‬-‭11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Peter owned the boat. His father owned the boat and he was a professional fisher. He knew what to do. But here, he failed. He worked all night and didn’t catch anything. Then Jesus came on the scene.


What do you do when you’ve given it your all and you still fail? A good question to ask and consider.


Point 1: Allow God’s presence in your life.


“Then He got into one of the boats, which was Simon’s, and asked him to put out a little from the land. And He sat down and taught the multitudes from the boat.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Welcome His presence into your life, in all places and areas of your life.


Praise God.


When you praise God, you are welcoming His presence.


Take in the Word of God.


When you read the Bible, you are welcoming the presence of God into your life.


Watch who you associate with.


“Blessed is the man Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, Nor stands in the path of sinners, Nor sits in the seat of the scornful; But his delight is in the law of the Lord, And in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water, That brings forth its fruit in its season, Whose leaf also shall not wither; And whatever he does shall prosper.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭1‬:‭1‬-‭3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Do not be deceived: “Evil company corrupts good habits.””
‭‭I Corinthians‬ ‭15‬:‭33‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Get together with other believers.


“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6‬:‭33‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Point 2: Follow God’s plan.


“When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭4‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Let God deeper into your life. If you don’t know what His plan is, ask Him.


Point 3: Expect God to act.


“But Simon answered and said to Him, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



God keeps His Word. God’s Word keeps us safe.


“Real success begins at the point of failure.”


Luke 5:1-11 is an example of that.


Verse of success:


“And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking. So they signaled to their partners in the other boat to come and help them. And they came and filled both the boats, so that they began to sink.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭5‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



When you are able to move past failure towards success, it will bless you and others.




Note after sharing the sermon: Moving past failure and toward success, that has to be all God. While there are indeed people who have demonstrated an ability to overcome failure on their strength simply by working harder or working more, there are (I believe) many cases where human strength alone cannot overcome. Yes, we have to play a role, but I cannot tell you how many times I’ve heard people overemphasize that side of the coin. Then again, in a culture that lives on self-reliance, why would I expect it to be different? It’s why I gravitate towards this verse:


“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭12‬:‭9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



I remember a teaching that really opened my heart to the Gospel occurred back in 2007. After a week of dealing with spiritual and intellectual frustrations (more in this post), a friend of mine invited me to a Bible study where he was essentially giving the main sermon. (The guy who leads the weekly study also preached but it was a little earlier in the evening.) The main point that grabbed me was how Christianity was different from all other religions (or “faiths”, as some like to call it), specifically the point where all other religions were like climbing a mountain on one’s own strength (which, for a person scaling, say, Mount Everest, would absolutely be expected), while Christianity meant laying down your strength and receiving God’s strength, through which you then climb said mountain. In other words, Christianity meant no striving. That’s what I had been doing that week! I was striving with something in which my frustration was keeping me from God. This eye-opening moment caused me to experience what it was like to be “drunk” on the Holy Spirit. I loved every minute of it. But I didn’t understand it, which is why it quickly faded. It also didn’t change my opinion regarding the topics with which I was struggling, at least not for a number of years yet. But I remember that moment because of experiencing God’s presence, and because He did meet me in another way that I could identify deeply: the success of one’s walk with God doesn’t depend on how hard one works, or the measurable amount of success (i.e. works). And if there’s anything I know about God and success, on any level, really, it is this:


“Be strong and of good courage, for to this people you shall divide as an inheritance the land which I swore to their fathers to give them. Only be strong and very courageous, that you may observe to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go. This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.””
‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1‬:‭6‬-‭9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Yes, God commands us to be strong and courageous, but it comes with two other key components:


1.) Meditate on God’s Word day and night.
2.) God promises to be with us wherever we go.


And although the immediate context has to do with Israel preparing to take over Canaan, I have noted that these truths can (and often do) also apply to any endeavor that God calls us to that we may not currently be doing: a new ministry, a new career, a new romance (for those who are single), a new child (particularly for those who have never been parents), a new location, and so on. After all, the generation of Israelites that Joshua was commissioned to lead had never been to Canaan before, let alone lived there (they and 400 years of ancestors had all lived in Egypt!). It was a new endeavor. God had promised to be with them and equip them. The reason Moses’s generation didn’t get to go in was because they continually refused to believe. Even Moses wasn’t spared the consequences, as even he had fallen into unbelief.


Even I have had my seasons where I failed. But even in those times, God allowed me to focus and work on gaps in my belief and understanding. The primary example I like to reflect upon is how, before meeting my wife, I had what I believe to be several bona fide romantic opportunities. I failed because dating scared me and because putting myself out there also scared me. And it was only because of these failures (specifically the last one) that finally propelled me into focusing on understanding what dating was rather than what I had understood it to be.


“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3‬:‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



It was a gauntlet of sorts just to get to my ex, and even then, that relationship was a gauntlet of its own. Ultimately it ended, but looking back, I evidently passed the test enough because 4 1/2 months later I met my wife. But the point was gaining learning and experience.


In 2022, just a few short months after I was hired at my current job, I was presented with Joshua 1:6-9. I was attempting to read through the Bible in a year, and this was around the time that my discipline in daily reading was starting to fall by the wayside. Work-busyness was beginning to ramp up, and while I was grateful for the opportunity, I was starting to feel quite in over my head. This verse came across my path right at that time. I couldn’t see a way through, although I plowed my way as much as I believed I could. The work kept coming. But the reading didn’t keep going. And I struggled with being able to keep up with all manner of things that were on my plate that year. By God’s grace I am still working at my current job, but I’ve been having questions about my career and purpose. Where I’m at may not be a long-term solution. But I’m still taking this day by day.


Also, as God continues to heal me, I’m starting to see how I might be able to get back the strength I’ve lost.


““So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The crawling locust, The consuming locust, And the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you.”
‭‭Joel‬ ‭2‬:‭25‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



God does promise to restore lost things to you, if you truly put your trust in Him. You can actually recover from failure, like this particular message states. But I would also add that, while you do have a role in this recovery process, it doesn’t depend all on you or your strength. In fact, sometimes it’s all you can do to simply lay down the strength you have at the foot of the mountain (as per the above-mentioned Bible study’s keynote speaker) and ask God to take you up.


“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭12‬:‭9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Monday, June 15, 2026

You Don’t Have to Be Perfect, part 2

Note before sharing the devotional: I realized only now that I had already released this devotional, a week ago. Today’s post has more commentary, so I’ll simply re-release it as is. Be blessed.



“Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭3‬:‭12‬-‭14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



You Don’t Have to Be Perfect


Maybe we started off the year strong, but now the halfway point is creeping up, and we’re realizing just how many Bible readings we’re behind– not to mention workouts skipped. To be honest, it’s easy to become apathetic, debating whether failed goals are worth continuing.


But, what if it doesn’t matter when you started or how consistent you’ve been, but that you tried at all? Not that you did it perfectly, but that you attempted.


In Philippians 3, Paul reminds us: we’re not going to get it right on our own, anyway. No matter our qualifications or efforts, we won’t be made perfect or complete without the work of Christ.


So, while we try our best to keep goals, it won’t work out every time. What really counts is being obedient to the call God’s placed on our lives. Sometimes that means pressing on as well as we can.


Observations from the Text:

  • We can’t be perfect or complete on our own (v. 12)
  • Christ’s death and resurrection make us perfect (v. 12)
  • Our past failures shouldn’t keep us from stepping into what God has for us (v. 13)
  • “The prize” is union with Jesus! (v. 14)



Note after sharing the devotional: I recall perfection being something that was expected of me growing up, something that I’ve carried with me to this day, because of how sharply it was impressed on me. Now, to be clear, what “perfection” entailed had some interesting parameters: perfect behavior, despite the immense pain that I had been and still was experiencing from all manner of different sources; perfection in terms of accomplishing my tasks (i.e. homework) but not necessarily perfection in terms of how well I did it; perfection in terms of singing the right notes at the right time for the right duration (I was in a church choir through high school), but not necessarily in terms of learning how to sing with proper vocal technique and skill. And, as part of Gen Y (I mean, the “Millennial” generation), having to be “always on,” not because I was explicitly told but because it was constantly—and I mean, constantly—modeled for me as something that must be done. (How would I reasonably be expected to understand anything different since I was never* taught anything about how to socialize with people?)


[*See this post and this post for a further explanation regarding my use of “never” in this context.]


Anyway, the point of all this is that not only do we not have to be perfect, but we cannot be perfect, not on our own strength. Yes, the Bible does say this:


“Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭48‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



But the context is Jesus’s command to love one’s enemies, like so:


“But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so?”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭44‬, ‭46‬-‭47‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



In other words, one’s love for others must be perfect. But not one’s performance. The Pharisees did a good job emphasizing perfect performance, and even Jesus had to say this about them:


“For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭20‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



The Pharisees were great performers, but they did not love others, especially those who they considered “lower” than them:


“Then Jesus spoke to the multitudes and to His disciples, saying: “The scribes and the Pharisees sit in Moses’ seat. Therefore whatever they tell you to observe, that observe and do, but do not do according to their works; for they say, and do not do. For they bind heavy burdens, hard to bear, and lay them on men’s shoulders; but they themselves will not move them with one of their fingers. But all their works they do to be seen by men. They make their phylacteries broad and enlarge the borders of their garments. They love the best places at feasts, the best seats in the synagogues, greetings in the marketplaces, and to be called by men, ‘Rabbi, Rabbi.’”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭23‬:‭1‬-‭7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Other key verses from Jesus’s rebuke of the Pharisees:


““Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you pay tithe of mint and anise and cummin, and have neglected the weightier matters of the law: justice and mercy and faith. These you ought to have done, without leaving the others undone.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭23‬:‭23‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



““Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you cleanse the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of extortion and self-indulgence.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭23‬:‭25‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Even so you also outwardly appear righteous to men, but inside you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭23‬:‭28‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



The point is, only with Jesus’s perfect righteousness can we be perfect, and even that is a gift that must be freely received, and not anything that can be earned:


“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2‬:‭8‬-‭9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Because after all:


“For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, “The just shall live by faith.””
‭‭Romans‬ ‭1‬:‭16‬-‭17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



In other words, the Gospel reveals the righteousness of God. And what is the righteousness of God? Not what, but rather Who: and that is Jesus Christ, the Son of God. He is perfection. As for how we can live up to His standard of perfection:


1. Believe.


“Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.””
‭‭John‬ ‭6‬:‭29‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



In other words, believe in Jesus that He is Who He says He is, and believe what the Bible says about Him.


“He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.””
‭‭John‬ ‭7‬:‭38‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



2. Abide.


“Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15‬:‭4‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


Prayer: Father God, in the name of Jesus, I lay down my need to be perfect and “always on,” never allowing myself a chance to rest. I take up instead the perfection of Christ. Amen.

Monday, June 8, 2026

Devotionals from my Bible app: You Don’t Have to Be Perfect (Philippians 3:12-14)

Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-14, NKJV



You Don’t Have to Be Perfect


Maybe we started off the year strong, but now the halfway point is creeping up, and we’re realizing just how many Bible readings we’re behind– not to mention workouts skipped. To be honest, it’s easy to become apathetic, debating whether failed goals are worth continuing.


But, what if it doesn’t matter when you started or how consistent you’ve been, but that you tried at all? Not that you did it perfectly, but that you attempted.


In Philippians 3, Paul reminds us: we’re not going to get it right on our own, anyway. No matter our qualifications or efforts, we won’t be made perfect or complete without the work of Christ.


So, while we try our best to keep goals, it won’t work out every time. What really counts is being obedient to the call God’s placed on our lives. Sometimes that means pressing on as well as we can.



Observations from the Text:
  • We can’t be perfect or complete on our own (v. 12)
  • Christ’s death and resurrection make us perfect (v. 12)
  • Our past failures shouldn’t keep us from stepping into what God has for us (v. 13)
  • “The prize” is union with Jesus! (v. 14)


Prayer: Father God, in the name of Jesus, I lay down my need to be perfect and “always on,” never allowing myself a chance to rest. I take up instead the perfection of Christ. Amen.


Note after sharing the devotional: I’ve been there, including recently. So I can relate to anyone else who has been there. I find the Observations from the Text section to be very encouraging. Be blessed today.

Saturday, June 6, 2026

Devotionals from my Bible app: Meekness Isn’t Weakness (Matthew 5:5)





“Blessed are the meek, For they shall inherit the earth.”
Matthew 5:5 NKJV


Or put another way: “blessed are those who keep their strength under control, for they shall inherit the earth.”


Meekness Isn’t Weakness

Everything around us—the world, the culture, the people—tends to applaud power and strength, independence and intelligence, boldness and superiority.

But in the third beatitude, a series of promises Jesus made about God’s Kingdom, Jesus highlighted something different, saying:


“Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.”
Matthew 5:5 NIV


The English word "meek" comes from the Greek word "praeis." It means gentle, humble, or submissive; modest, mild, or unpretentious. In fact, when Paul describes the “fruits of the Spirit” (traits developed in His people by His Spirit), the words "meekness" and "gentleness" are often used interchangeably.

But, let’s be clear: If such descriptions paint a frail and feeble picture in your mind, you can be certain that meekness isn’t weakness.

Meekness is strength under control. It's power submitted to God’s authority.

Now, if “meek” isn’t a word that you’d use to currently describe yourself, that’s okay. Jesus wasn’t speaking to those who had it all together—and He isn’t expecting a perfect version of us, either. Instead, He’s extending a blessing on who His people were (and are) becoming.

God is continually developing these beatitude traits inside of His followers. He's refining, sanctifying, and transforming us to be more and more like Him.

In Scripture, Jesus Himself is called “meek.” But as you probably know, He was far from passive, apathetic, or a pushover. Instead of relying on His own power—like summoning legions of angels to avoid hanging on that cross—He leaned into God’s strength and restrained His limitless power.

Jesus’ upside-down kingdom will be packed with those who harness their strength for God’s glory and who humble themselves at His feet.


Share your faith: When you submit to God’s strength instead of relying on your own, people notice.


Share your faith: Today, you can represent Christ by leveraging your strengths to serve others with humility, gentleness, and compassion.


Prayer: God, thank You for welcoming me into Your kingdom. Thank You for accepting me, even though I don’t have it all together. I’m reminded that Your power is sufficient for all my needs, so help me to lean on Your strength today. Please help me walk gently and humbly with those I encounter. In Jesus’s name, Amen.


Transcription from video lead:

Have you ever thought being meek means being weak? During His famous Sermon on the Mount, Jesus gave us eight beatitudes – eight attitudes – that lead to a blessed and happy life. Don’t we all want to experience happiness? In Matthew 5:5, Jesus says, “blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.” In other words, happy are the meek. Now, at first, that may sound strange. In our world, meekness can sound like weakness. It can sound like passivity. But that’s not what Jesus meant. Meekness is strength under control. It’s the ability to have power and passion and emotion under strength. And no one demonstrated this better than Jesus. In John 13 we see one of the most beautiful pictures of what meekness looks like in action. Jesus at the last supper looked into the faces of His disciples. He knew it would be His last chance before the cross to show them His love and to inspire them to carry on His vision. So what did Jesus do? He picked up a towel and washed their feet. That’s meekness, strength under control. Like many of you, I’ve carried a lot of responsibilities, and at times, I felt a lot of pressure. So what did I do? I pushed harder. I overreacted. I fired back. And honestly, I’m not demonstrating meekness at times. But what I’ve learned is living with strength under control—meekness—it actually produces much better results with others. You see, meekness doesn’t make you weak. Meekness actually makes your strength more useful. Having an attitude of meekness enables you to respond instead of react. It empowers you to serve others rather than be self-serving. It helps you to walk into a room and ask: “who can I add value to” instead of “who can help me.” So the question is, are you living a happy life? If not, have you tried meekness? When we live like Jesus, with strength under control, we earn the trust of others and truly, we inherit the earth. God bless.


Note after sharing the devotional and transcription: I knew I needed to share not only this devotional but also the video lead. These messages were mind-blowing. Meekness as strength under control – I’ve never heard it spelled that way before. It’s yet another answer to a prayer I’ve been praying, which is how to live a long life?

Truthfully, I’ve not been meek in this life. As the “short, small kid” with the “squeaky-high voice,” along with a host of other challenges upon mounting challenges that I never* learned to deal with until far later, meekness not only meant weakness, but also admitting that my enemies were right: that I was small, short, weak, and worthless, and that I could do nothing about it. Until therapy, I do not think I could say I experienced anyone as truly in my corner. Now, when I look back, I realize that there were a few, not to mention the God of the Bible, if I would only turn to Him and call out to Him to save me and help me. But I didn’t know that then.


[*Once again with the “never” commentary – it’s not truly “never,” as I began learning how to deal with some of these things in therapy, and now, post-therapy, finally learning how to deal with them on a whole new level. Depending on how many more posts I write where I share about learning how much of a “ditz” I was, I probably will use the word “never” more times. Just know that when I say “never” in this context, I simply mean that I went through my entire childhood and young adulthood without knowing a darn thing in whatever topic area I happen to be referencing, and only now, by God’s grace and His wisdom am I learning it at the present point in time.]


If I want to live a long life, according to God’s word, I need to:

  • Keep my tongue from evil (Psalm 34:13, 1 Peter 3:10)
  • Don’t speak lies (Psalm 34:13, 1 Peter 3:10)
  • Depart from evil (Psalm 34:14, 1 Peter 3:11)
  • Do good (Psalm 34:14, 1 Peter 3:11)
  • Seek peace; pursue it (Psalm 34:14, 1 Peter 3:11)
  • Learn to develop strength (i.e. emotions, passion, intelligence, knowledge, gifting, etc) under control (Matthew 5:5) with the promise of inheriting the earth.

I expect this list will grow. But I’ll leave this with you for now, as this has been quite groundbreaking. Praise the Lord.



Friday, June 5, 2026

Songs in the Dark (Psalm 42:11)





“Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭42‬:‭11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Songs in the Dark


Even in life’s hardest and most depressing seasons, God is with us and is listening to us.


One purpose of a song of lament, or lament psalm, is to be honest with God. It’s about expressing vulnerability by telling God exactly how we feel. We should never be afraid of God or how we speak to Him, because He is able to handle our deepest emotions and complaints. And lament psalms are our model in Scripture on how we can be honest with Him.


Psalm 42 is a lament psalm. It is a song about the hopelessness of the writer’s current condition. It speaks to deep sorrow and grief that is experienced in life. The writer of Psalm 42 does not know why he is depressed. He’s not sure why certain things are happening to him. And so he goes to God in prayer and song, expressing the deepest parts of his soul.


Another purpose of lament is to connect the hopelessness of life with the hope that God gives. Laments act as a bridge between our present situation and the promises we’re waiting on.


The writer of this Psalm speaks to his own soul and encourages himself to continue to hope in God. He knows that no season lasts forever, and there will come a time when joy returns to him.


We will all go through seasons of sadness and grief. And we will have Psalms as a guide. The first step is to come before God and honestly express yourself to Him. Tell Him exactly how you feel.


Next, remember the promises that He has given you in His Word. Recount how much He loves you and cares for you.


And lastly, encourage yourself to put your hope in God. Move towards songs of praise in spite of your current circumstances.



Share your faith: Some days are harder than others. That’s why it’s important to keep putting our hope in God.


Share your faith: Who do you know that is hurting? Be intentional to encourage them today—in Jesus’s name.


Prayer: God, there are real hardships in my life that I’m trying to surrender to You. Please help me. I want to remember that You are always good, sovereign, and in control. Once again, I’m trusting in Your provision, protection, and plans. Because I know You care about every need and desire I have, I can rest. Give me peace as I recall that You are worthy of my trust. In Jesus’s name, Amen.



Note after sharing the devotional: David had a habit of encouraging himself in the Lord, like so:


“Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.”
‭‭I Samuel‬ ‭30‬:‭6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



[Side note: With the way I copy and paste Bible verses, I’m generally unable to copy partial verses, and the above verse is one of those times. That said, I actually think it works out even better for illustrating my point.]


The full verse reveals that David was indeed greatly distressed. He didn’t pretend he wasn’t. But he had a “choice point” where he could run toward God or run away from Him. He chose the former.


That doesn’t mean he didn’t have “lament” Psalms, as today’s devotional shows. In 2019, when it had been revealed how far I had strayed from God, I set two such Psalms to music. I’ve previously stated how the fast in June of that year was the turning point, and how, although God gave back the gift of music composition, it didn’t come back guy right away. In retrospect, I think that had more to do with my understanding regarding its return than the idea that God returned it to me slowly. After all, God is not limited, except by us (when He wants to work with us), as it says here:


“Yes, again and again they tempted God, And limited the Holy One of Israel.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭78‬:‭41‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Otherwise, here are assurances we have from Him stating His unlimited power and ability to act:


“‘Ah, Lord God! Behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and outstretched arm. There is nothing too hard for You.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭32‬:‭17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



““Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭32‬:‭27‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



And most notably:


“‘Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.’”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭33‬:‭3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



That alone is too much for any human mind to comprehend, but not too much for us to trust. Regarding the return of the compositional gift, it was immediate—it just took me months to realize it. Looking back, I know this now because in July 2019, I set the text to Psalm 6 to a cappella choral music. And it is indeed a lament, for I had been going through all sorts of trouble at that time:


“O Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger, Nor chasten me in Your hot displeasure. Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O Lord—how long? Return, O Lord, deliver me! Oh, save me for Your mercies’ sake!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭6‬:‭1‬-‭4‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



The words really spoke to a lot of where I was at at the time. Months later, after some things began straightening out (but I was still going through other remaining challenges), I took the opportunity to do an impromptu piano and voice improvisation, which I recorded, on Psalms 42 and 43 (as one continuous, through-composed song):


“As the deer pants for the water brooks, So pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my food day and night, While they continually say to me, “Where is your God?” When I remember these things, I pour out my soul within me. For I used to go with the multitude; I went with them to the house of God, With the voice of joy and praise, With a multitude that kept a pilgrim feast. Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him For the help of His countenance.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭42‬:‭1‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Vindicate me, O God, And plead my cause against an ungodly nation; Oh, deliver me from the deceitful and unjust man! For You are the God of my strength; Why do You cast me off? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? Oh, send out Your light and Your truth! Let them lead me; Let them bring me to Your holy hill And to Your tabernacle. Then I will go to the altar of God, To God my exceeding joy; And on the harp I will praise You, O God, my God. Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭43‬:‭1‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



It wasn’t until 2020, and especially 2021, that I finally started taking the reins of the renewed gift. It wasn’t because God was slow in returning the gift to me (He wasn’t slow at all), but rather that it took me time to fully realize what it was that had been returned to me.


I’m currently in a season of different types of hardships, namely around a deep need for healing. But God has already promised that He has heard my prayer and will heal it:


“and said, “If you diligently heed the voice of the Lord your God and do what is right in His sight, give ear to His commandments and keep all His statutes, I will put none of the diseases on you which I have brought on the Egyptians. For I am the Lord who heals you.””
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭15‬:‭26‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Specifically, “I am the Lord who heals you.”


“But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭53‬:‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Specifically: “by [Jesus Christ’s] stripes [I am] healed.”


And:


““Return and tell Hezekiah the leader of My people, ‘Thus says the Lord, the God of David your father: “I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; surely I will heal you. On the third day you shall go up to the house of the Lord.”
‭‭II Kings‬ ‭20‬:‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Specifically: “I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; surely I will heal you.” Although I am aware that the context for this verse has to do with King Hezekiah, this is one of those times where taking only part of a verse out of its original context is acceptable. That’s because God’s promise to heal and reverse one’s march toward death isn’t limited only to King Hezekiah. It’s a promise for all of us who call upon the name of the Lord Jesus. Also acceptable given the other verses that I have already put forth, as well as this next one:


“But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



The key, of course, is having received Jesus Christ as your King and Savior of your life. Additionally:


“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



…which means that even sickness and disease must bow down to the God of the Bible. God can use what the devil meant for evil and turn it around for good:


“But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive.”
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭50‬:‭20‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



Through reflection, I now know that the primary culprits of the sickness I have battled are anger/rage, stress/anxiety, and coffee. I have been off coffee for over a year and a half, and I intend to stay off it for the rest of my life (please help me, Father God!). I also recently prayed for Him to remove whatever it is that has caused me to become so angry at things. I haven’t yet prayed the same over stress/anxiety in the same way recently, although I have, with His help, taken major steps toward putting anxiety aside at certain times. Additionally, other needs have become higher priority which I’m now addressing. Ultimately the goal will be to ask God what His plans are for my life. I’ve never really known the answer to that question, and I’m realizing I’ve never really asked; only that I’ve assumed that if I do the basics, then somehow I’m already in His plan and His will. I just naturally assumed it would be something that would be easy to figure out. Now I’m realizing that that may not be the case like I had thought. I now know that I can’t promise anything if He makes me whole again. My own strength is just not good enough, and maybe it was never meant to be. The best I can do regarding if He were to heal me is do what I should be doing anyway, which is giving my life to Him, and then ask Him what He wants me to be doing for Him. I’m gradually getting answers to that question as I go along.


I’ll close this post with two of my favorite passages that have helped me especially during this time:


“I shall not die, but live, And declare the works of the Lord.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭118‬:‭17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬



“Bless the Lord, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭103‬:‭1‬-‭5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


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