And you give me rest

I bought another CD back on Friday night at the Relay for Life rally. I missed most of the event but came for the last hour or so, and the last band to play was Away with the Stone. My friend Adam is the lead singer (and writes most of the songs), but I'd never seen them perform due to various conflicts. So I finally got to hear them this weekend, and I gotta say I enjoyed hearing their music. And it was just in time, as I talked to Adam afterward and found out it was their last performance together, as they're beginning to adhere to different life callings (one guy is moving to Montana).

I've been listening to one song in particular, and while I don't currently feel this way, it's been kind of an outline as to realizing my own human nature and understanding what I can do to make something good out of it. I have at times felt frustrated with myself over a myriad of challenges. But recently when I feel like I've hit my lows, instead of fretting for an extensive period of time and being plain miserable about it, I've turned to my faith and to God. Maybe this particular instinct is one of many reasons I've thought about having theology for a career, but it just plain feels good to have something to turn to so I can move on in life. This one song that I've been listening to underscores this sentiment really well (lyrics below).

I need a jumpstart

I need an intervention

Not something temporary

But something tried and true

My soul cries out to you

Free me from my selfishness

And when my soul cries out to you

You come and You give me rest

Why do I think that I will always somehow find the answer?

Why do I think that I can do it on my own?

Why do I think that I will always pull it together

When all I end up is frustrated and alone?

--"Soul Cries Out" by Adam Pearce and Away with the Stone

It's been a kind of satisfying weekend. Aside from the thunderstorm that hit about mid-afternoon that forced the Lutefest events to move indoors, and the fact that my sleep deprivation over the past week forced me into a three-hour nap yesterday afternoon, I've been able to have fun and appreciate the people around me. Aside from my many senior friends graduating and a couple others transferring, I realized how grateful I've been to catch up with some people I haven't really talked to in a long time--as in a couple years--and realize what it's like to have them in my life again, even if briefly.